Some people just have way too much time on their hands to be writing to advice columns, but the topic below was published in
asianweek and happened to catch my attention . . .
Dear Q:
I’m a white dude who’s very much in love with my Chinese American boyfriend. The thing is, sometimes he gets insanely jealous if I flirt or look at other Asian guys — any Asian guy, even on television. When we talk about it, he gets upset and says he feels unspecial and threatened. I say there’s no harm in what I’m doing, and I can’t explain why I love Asian guys; I just do. I also point out that he has only dated white guys, but that pisses him off.
The sex is great, we share bank accounts, our families love us, and we just bought a two-bedroom in a stunning Victorian. We’ve got everything for a great, lasting relationship except he has this annoying complex. It’s breaking us up almost literally because he wants an explanation.
What am I supposed to do as an attractive gay guy walking down Castro and cruising guys like any normal male would (and should be allowed to) when it’s upsetting the man in my bed? Hope you can help. This sucks.
– Craving Guys East and West
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Dear Craving Guys,
Let me parse: the problem is not that you dig “Gaysians,” but that your BF has an issue with it. It’s not that looking at other guys is a crime, according to your question; it’s looking at other Gaysians, and that means — drum roll, please — your BF hates himself.
I know that sounds cruel and not helpful. He hates that he doesn’t have the same attraction as you do, which is to say he doesn’t find Asians attractive, which is to say he doesn’t find himself attractive. Which means you have to do the thing that all good lovers do: love him a little harder.
I know people have dreamy ideals of what a relationship is supposed to be, but looking at gorgeous people is hardly an offense. Having sex with Brad Pitt wouldn’t be either.
Are you licking your chops at redheads and African Americans? If not, then another analysis might be that he feels you like him for his Asian-ness, but not because he’s a really wonderful, smart and charming person. Unspecial, you said. Reduced, I’d say.
I’m sure your BF knows that he’s supposed to find Asians attractive, too, but the truth is that you don’t have to be physically attracted to your own race. It’s never about the thing you’re supposed to do as much as the thing that is you — with every bit of awareness about the complexity and shortcoming of it all. Love is not a conversion project, nor should it be burdened with issues of representation. You love him. He loves you. The end.
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Having lived in both asia and in u.s. cities with high asian populations, i've gotten my fair exposure to gaysians and rice queens. I was recently in l.a. for new year's eve and caught one of my friends in a predicament somewhat reflective of the advice seeker's complaints. We were at a party where my asian friend was upset with his white boyfriend for flirting with other 'gaysians' on the dance floor. I took a moment out of my booty shaking rhythm to survey the scene and sure enough witnessed white boyfriend's roving eyeballs (and hands). As it relates to the advice column above, i can't say that my friend hates himself because of his boyfriend's flirtatiousness. I think he just needs to be a little less sensitive and build up some tougher skin. I told him not to worry so much about his boyfriend and loosen up his own inhibitions a bit. While i certainly wasn't condoning they open up in any way, i simply wanted my friend to relax and act naturally.
What this all boils down to, at least in my opinion, is human nature. Boys will be boys, and gay boys will forever be thinking with their dicks and not their brains in most instances. So when i walk around castro and 18th and notice an asian/white couple where the white guy is checking me out, i don't think he's 'reducing' his boyfriend or making him feel 'unspecial' in any way. He's just appreciating something that is aesthetically pleasing to him. And don't think that this only happens in the asian/white relationship dynamic. This happens with all different types of couples out there too: same-race and inter-race, gay and straight, bears and twinks . . . it doesn't matter. My advice would be to act more discreetly and be more mindful of your boyfriend. A simple eye contact is fine, but a neck breaking head turn might be excessive.
Example: bush checking out some guy on the side while holding hands with his oblivious boyfriend.